Unfortunately I also managed to loose my fav pair of reading glasses. They were pretty cool, but not so cool as to make me stand out as someone trying to look cool. I'm pretty bummed to tell the truth. They're $200/pair!!! Though the expense seems justified because I use them all the time, like shoes or boots. Unfortunately the store isn't around here either..
It's weird how easy it is to get attached to, sentimental about, this seemingly small scale stuff when we actually know we have the essentials to survive. It's also weird how hard it can be to apply logic sometimes. When we get attached to these things could it be because we don't yet have that over the rainbow something?
For today I'm going to be patient and hope for the best — that the glasses turn up, but I kind of doubt it since they haven't already. My sitting this morning included speculation that, mindlessly, they fell out of my coat pocket while I was walking. Things are impermanant. It was bound to happen sometime. Shikanstupid.
In the meantime, I'm making do. I'm wearing a pair of outrageously cool (but somewhat geekier?) reading glasses — problematic because it takes more effort to coordinate the uncoordinated look if you know what I mean...
And that is making me long for a simpler life sort of like Antaiji (sort of, because yeah life there was hard, physically, but also in terms of peer pressure, like with smoking) where I was uncoordinated in attire with no effort at all! A life with nothing to attain.
Shikanstupid I love it!
ReplyDeleteHowever i must caution you against self deprecation, it is something I see you engaging in often enough for it to be a possible hinderance.
You may think it harmless, but it has a cumulative harmful effect.
"Shikanstupid" - Glad you got a kick out of it. Goes without saying probably, but I liked it too.
ReplyDeleteAnd thanks for the concern and the heads up, it prompted all sorts of thoughts about self-view. It's not the inner critic speaking there for me, rather I think I may be in the rebound from all those 'positive affirmations' new-agey pseudo-Buddhists peddle. So I don't necessarily think its a bad thing. It's better to accept and learn to appreciate one's flaws as uniqueness, if nothing else. As opposed to the masking effect of those affirmations.
In fact, I feel like writing a post about it. Though not today. Have to get ready for leaving on sesshin at Sanshin. Going for sewing class there in February too :)
Still.. possibly I should 'drop off' the introspection before writing, rather than during. It's a wonderful point. Thanks!